Home
Kimberly's Journal

> recent entries
> calendar
> friends
> profile

Monday, October 15th, 2001
2:36 pm - It's been awhile...
Man, it has been so.. long since I last wrote as a matter of fact it has been 8 weeks, I think. I have been so~ busy. Anyway here's what's been going on. School has been good My grades are great and I've had a really good season with volleyball. I made homecoming and that was Excellent, my dress was fab, the car was awesome and my dad drove 10 hours from NC just to escort me. His Tux was great too. Best of all I wasn't sick like I was last year. Alisha made homecoming Queen which is awesome she so deserved it. I love her. Hmm.. My brother has really been stressing out the family he has 22 demerits out of 25, once he gets 25 he goes to the alternative school. He's only acting like this because my dad isn't here to knock his head against the wall, which is exactly what he needs right about now. He know's my mother is ill and still he acts like a heathen! I just want to stangle him. ARG! I have really been having to pick up the slack for my brother because he refuses to behave and it's stressing me out, I swear I'm gonna look 30 before I'm 18! But I guess me stepping up to the plate is helping and plus my mom is giving me a lot more freedom and trust. Which is what I wanted and needed. I have been talking more and more with Sebastian and I can't wait until he comes to visit us in NC this summer, it will be awesome. Anyway, I guess that is all. So I'm audi!
**SilentWings**
Kimberly

current mood: drained
current music: It's been awhile...

(comment on this)

Monday, August 20th, 2001
3:15 pm - First week back to school..How depressing!
Ok, so last week was my first week back to school. I feel like I did so~~ bad! I weighed myself Monday and I was a little excited because I had lost some weight (5 lbs.) but not nearly enough. I felt so out of control because since I'll be so preoccupied with all the stressing stuff that comes with school I
can't exercise nearly as much as I do during the summer. This is gonna be long so keep on reading. So on Monday I had 830 cals. and the only exercise I did was 50 reps. on my Ab Roller and 2 hours of Volleyball practice. On Tuesday I had 1,205 cals. ARG!!! and the only exercise I did was 50 reps. on the Ab Roller. (and a tear drops.) On Wednesday I had 800 cals. and the only exercise I had was 50 reps. on the Ab Roller and 2 hours volleyball
practice. On Thursday I had 1,135 cals. the exercise that I had was 50 reps. on the Ab Roller, 25 push-ups and A Volleyball game. The JV had to end on a Tie and the Varsity aced it, winning the first two matches! The only reason I had so many calories on that day was becuause after the game 3 of my team mates and I went to Mazzio's pizza, I had some of those pepperollies. Mmmm, good! On Friday I had a major binge -1,450 cals. NOoooooooooo! And to top
it off I only did 50 reps. on my Ab roller even though I should have done a lot more to work the cals. off! I am so upset about my week. I don't even want to step on that scale tomorrow. Weigh-in is gonna make me so depressed! Ok, and now for my horrible los fines de semana(weekend). Saturday I had 1,460 cals. and I didn't do ANY exercise. I'm so stupid,stupid,stupid. I don't know what was wrong with me but I just really flupped up last week. Today so far I've had 540 cals. and I only plan to have about 450 for supper. Next week I'm going in salvation mode. I have to make up for last week, so I'm going to go jogging 3 miles everyday after V-ball practice except on the day of my game..Tuesday. And no more than 900 cals. a day. Plus I'll do at least 100 reps. on the Ab Roller and at least 50 push-ups a day. I have a really busy week but desperate times call for desperate mesures. Wish me luck! I miss my Sebastian SOooooo Much! I've been talking to him, and he thought I was gonna hook up with the other German guy that is our friend and is here for the school year, Mario. Who happpens to be so fine! I don't think I'll be hooking up with him, he's quite the gentleman and he's really sweet and he likes me, but I just miss Sebastian so~ much. And even though Sebastian and I are "just friends" I still don't think I could date someone who is his friend. Although, my friend Justin asked me if I had my eye on any particular guy so far this year. And I didn't answer him because gosh, It's only been 1 week. But I was thinking..HMMmmm, Wes is a hottie and we hang out, and I miss Travis who is going to be starting college(hopefully, for his own good)and I don't really like Daniel(my guy from last year) but I do miss liking him and him liking me. So here I am all confused over a stupid,simple little question. It's a good thing I didn't try to tell all that to Justin, he would have been like,"Whoa!". LoL. So anyway, I'm ready for another dose..I hope I am at least. I'm OUTTIE.

current mood: disappointed
current music: Gone..

(comment on this)

3:08 pm - First week back to school..How depressing!
Ok, so last week was my first week back to school. I feel like I did so~~ bad! I weighed myself Monday and I was a little excited because I had lost some weight (5 lbs.) but not nearly enough. I felt so out of control because since I'll be so preoccupied with all the stressing stuff that comes with school I
can't exercise nearly as much as I do during the summer. This is gonna be long so keep on reading. So on Monday I had 830 cals. and the only exercise I did was 50 reps. on my Ab Roller and 2 hours of Volleyball practice. On Tuesday I had 1,205 cals. ARG!!! and the only exercise I did was 50 reps. on the Ab Roller. (and a tear drops.) On Wednesday I had 800 cals. and the only exercise I had was 50 reps. on the Ab Roller and 2 hours volleyball
practice. On Thursday I had 1,135 cals. the exercise that I had was 50 reps. on the Ab Roller, 25 push-ups and A Volleyball game. The JV had to end on a Tie and the Varsity aced it, winning the first two matches! The only reason I had so many calories on that day was becuause after the game 3 of my team mates and I went to Mazzio's pizza, I had some of those pepperollies. Mmmm, good! On Friday I had a major binge -1,450 cals. NOoooooooooo! And to top
it off I only did 50 reps. on my Ab roller even though I should have done a lot more to work the cals. off! I am so upset about my week. I don't even want to step on that scale tomorrow. Weigh-in is gonna make me so depressed! Ok, and now for my horrible los fines de semana(weekend). Saturday I had 1,460 cals. and I didn't do ANY exercise. I'm so stupid,stupid,stupid. I don't know what was wrong with me but I just really flupped up last week. Today so far I've had 540 cals. and I only plan to have about 450 for supper. Next week I'm going in salvation mode. I have to make up for last week, so I'm going to go jogging 3 miles everyday after V-ball practice except on the day of my game..Tuesday. And no more than 900 cals. a day. Plus I'll do at least 100 reps. on the Ab Roller and at least 50 push-ups a day. I have a really busy week but desperate times call for desperate mesures. Wish me luck! I miss my Sebastian SOooooo Much! I've been talking to him, and he thought I was gonna hook up with the other German guy that is our friend and is here for the school year, Mario. Who happpens to be so fine! I don't think I'll be hooking up with him, he's quite the gentleman and he's really sweet and he likes me, but I just miss Sebastian so~ much. And even though Sebastian and I are "just friends" I still don't think I could date someone who is his friend. Although, my friend Justin asked me if I had my eye on any particular guy so far this year. And I didn't answer him because gosh, It's only been 1 week. But I was thinking..HMMmmm, Wes is a hottie and we hang out, and I miss Travis who is going to be starting college(hopefully, for his own good)and I don't really like Daniel(my guy from last year) but I do miss liking him and him liking me. So here I am all confused over a stupid,simple little question. It's a good thing I didn't try to tell all that to Justin, he would have been like,"Whoa!". LoL. So anyway, I'm ready for another dose..I hope I am at least. I'm OUTTIE.

current mood: disappointed
current music: Gone..

(comment on this)

Monday, August 13th, 2001
2:54 pm - Natural Disasters,Angry Moms,and School Starts tomorrow!
Ok, it's been a while since I last wrote. Nothing really big has happened.My mom isn't feeling well again. She has cancer,but it's in remission. THANK GOD! She was upset with me this morning because I brought the puppy back in when he was supposed to be doing his business, it was raining like nobody's business. We had a flash flood! I've seen worse because I've lived in so many different areas,but the people around here nearly had heart attacks..I mean REALLY! My mom's floor board got a little wet but other than that no damage and she's got really good insurance, so no worries. Now the sun is shining and you can't even tell that they had to close off a major secondary road,Highway 49, and evacuate a small subdivison in boats. :) I'm so excited...I've mentioned this earlier but I LOVE SCHOOL! And I'm so ready for it. Tomorrow is the big day! I'm also excited because Mario, the german exchange student, is back for an entire year! HEY YEAH! I have a Volleyball game on Thurs. but I'm more than ready..I can't wait. Yippie.I also weigh in tomorrow, so cross your fingers and wish me luck!
I'm OUTTIE
SilentWings *Kimberly*

current mood: giddy
current music: Drops of Jupiter

(comment on this)

Sunday, August 5th, 2001
6:53 pm - Just meaningless Chit Chat
Ok, well this morning I woke up and I didn't eat anything untill 1:30pm..a Nabisco Fruit 'n Grain bar-130 cals. and I did my light excercise. I then had to go shopping for all my school supplies..I already have all the clothes I might buy some more though(I truly shop too much). I had a kiddie SNObiz Snowcone, and I had some Paella from last night YUM ,YUM!! And then I just had some Vanilla Wafers w/vanilla pudding and a cup of milk. I have calculated 770 cals. So far today. I don't know if I'll be having anything else though. Hmmm... Anyway, I'm ready for classes to start back. I've decided not to take Choral Music...I'm trading it for a Science on the 1st day back, so that I can take 2 sciences this year. Not that I NEED to, but because taking 2 sciences every year will look great on my college applications. I feel pretty good about Volleyball.My overhand serves have improved by 45% since last year and I've become more defensive. Excellent!My brother has been annoying me but I guess that'll never change. Oh, and I bought a new purse it's cute...I needed one. Well, I guess that's it. I'm OUTTIE
SilentWings *Kimberly*

current mood: indifferent
current music: Fallin by Alicia Keys

(comment on this)

Thursday, August 2nd, 2001
1:22 pm - Fatty binges again...
Ok heres what happened on Monday night (july 30)Fat..Fatty fat fat!! ARG. Last night was the worst. I was walking to sit down and my little puppy was running under my foot and his like diamond studded collar(only the best for my little man) got wrapped up in my toes and I tripped and fell over/on him. He developed a little bump on him so I took him to a 24 hour animal emergency room, and the vet was like
what happened and when I told him he looked at me like.."oh, no this fat whore didn't squash this dog..he's gonna die now", I felt so~ horrible. He gave him a shot and said he was probably just bruised up and I brought POLO home. I still feel kind of bad. I could have killed my little baby. Ahh, while I was taking him to the hospital I was just thinking what if I REALLY hurt him, I'd never forgive myself. Luckily he seems fine, but I would have died if he was hurt. While I'm here this is what I've had today: 1 vanilla slimfast ~220 cals. and I had 2 colon cleansing pills..I think I'll have a lean cuisine for dinner. Hmmm.
And here's what happened last night and today. ARG!It just snuck up on me...I was working with my mom yesterday at her job and we were heading home to a nice safe 400 or so calorie meal for me when she suggests we go to Sonic....NO!!!! In some places it's called a Rally's and others Checkers. Anyway, they have the best food. Their burgers are the bomb, their tator tots are totally awesome and their shakes are....superb! I couldn't resist. So basically in 25 minutes time I consumed 1,350 cals. I'm being literal...really it's like 1,350 cals. for all that. That's more than I usually have in a WHOLE DAY! So earlier,expecting a light dinner I had some maple & brown sugar oatmeal~160 cals. So that's 1,510 cals. NO!!!!! Ok, so then today I worked with my mom again and so she took me to lunch at the Country Fisherman, it's a kind of down homey type buffet atmosphere they usually have sea food but today it was chicken and fish. Here's what I had. A glass of water a salad(finely chopped lettuce and carrots w/thousand island dressing-eww,but they didn't have french) 3 small pieces of broccoli,2 small pieces of fish (like not even 1 oz. each),a small portion of mashed potatoes(my mom insisted) and a small portion of bannana pudding(mom insisted, again!) What am I a HOG! Luckily I didn't have breakfast. The only thing that keeps me from stabbing myself is that I have a med. Volleyball practice today. Which equates to 3 hours. And I ran a little this morning. Ok, I guess I'll shut up now, I just had to write ...No, dinner for me! Bad Kimberly, Bad Kimberly!!Ok, I'm OUTTIE!
SilentWings *Kimberly*

current mood: depressed
current music: I will understand....

(comment on this)

Tuesday, July 31st, 2001
1:56 pm - Obstacles
Why is it every time I get myself back on track "someone" keeps throwing new more difficult obstacles in my face!?! I mean I know most people wouldn't consider them obstacles but more of a blessing,but not for me. Now that my dad is gone and my mom is working a different shift(6 am till 4 pm),plus I just got a new puppy(baby)I have to really help out and act mature.I always act mature but now I have to really stay focused on school,my sports,home stuff,exercise,the puppy, and my brother..so that he does his chores and homework. I am used to helping big time but now it's like a whole different thing because my dad's not around. So I made myself a promise that I would not get involved with the "boy" thing this year, last year I went psycho! And I promised myself that oh so close 4.0 GPA and just when I think I'm definitely gonna be able to do that here comes a hurdle. He just so happens to be a 200 lb. hurdle in the form of a star football player. J.BUCK. He's not really my type but I was talking with my friend Mandi one friday night about 3 months ago and we were just hanging out talking to guys and here he comes with this skanky ass girl. And Mandi and I were on this head trip, we were all..."She ain't doin' it" which basically means she was not lookin' good. So nothing about her was "doin' it". And so J.BUCK came up to me and was all if you weren't so uptight it would be you on my arm. So there I go trying to prove I'm not uptight,even though I kinda am. And then I didn't really see him much since then, not that I've been avoiding him, I've just been busy. And so yesterday I was was walking at the West-Side Park(they have a 1/2 mile trail) and there are some guys I know playing basketball, but I don't say anything..I don't even look their way. And then I here this loud running coming behind me on the trail and who is it? J.BUCK! He asks me why I haven't called and where I've been all summer and don't get me wrong he's not ugly..he just wasn't my "type", until he called me uptight,and all of a sudden I'm trying to prove otherwise. So we talked for a few minutess. He tells me about some of his plans. He graduated this year and he's got a college scholarship to play football,but he's only using the scholarship so that he can become a dentist. And I ultimately promise to call him sometime. So, here I am at square one. I promised myself I wouldn't get invovled and here I am before school even starts back I've promised to call him. As if that wouldn't make my mom ballistic, he's not even in HS anymore..He's a college boy. This is gonna be a harder year then I hoped for. I will not give in to "them"(boys). I will not give in to "them". I will not give in to "them". Man I hope this helps. I'm OUTTIE.
SilentWings ~Kimberly~

current mood: annoyed
current music: Extraordinary

(comment on this)

Thursday, July 26th, 2001
12:42 pm - Hmmm...
Something happened with the dates..the last update I wrote was dated wrong. This is the correct date now. Well, today has been a mess. This morning I woke up at 7:15am to go for the 'ole morning run and it was raining...I mean POURING! Which isn't so bad, I love the rain, except I had to take my new puppy out to "do his business". Well, my mom had left for work, my brother was asleep and I accidentaly locked Polo and I out. ARG! So I banged on the door for what seemed like forever,probably 15 mins. and still Damien didn't come. OH,BROTHER! So we live in this apartment for now and my downstairs neighbor was going to work and offered me his celly so I could call and try to wake Damien up. Still, that stupid little brat wouldn't wake up. So my neighbor..who happens to fine(even though he's married) jimmied the door look with his Credit card. I said thanks cause by now I was freezing and Polo was too, but I couldn't help but think how scary it was that it was that easy for him to unlock my door. But I guess it doesn't matter as long as we bolt lock it when we leave and at night. And all through this my little brother still slept. BOYS! Ok,so I have been mad cleaning the house today.I'm a very "clean" person almost on the verge of being neurotic about it, but not as bad as Monica on "Friends".Anyway, my puppy slept on a little piece of my comforter that hung off my bed,and I've pets before,one of which slept In the bed with me and Under the covers. But when they first get here after about 3 days everything seems so "dirty" so I clean and clean and deodorize and wash and clean. But soon I realize that they aren't THAT dirty, and I become less compulsive about it. So I'm doing all this cleaning and all the while my lil bro just sat around and complained. And when I asked him to not mess up the house in 5 mins. and to clean his room he had the audacity to have a little attitude. I swear I almost strangled him. Ok, on a lighter note I have finished all my summer reading and I'm very happy to say that I have done a town of reading for pleasure. I enjoy books, they make me happy! :) Now I want to go over all my spanish and geometry/trig. notes from last year so that when I return I won't go through that oh so cliche "first week stupidity". I swear some people seem so~ stupid after the summer that I don't even want to talk to them. Ok, so I guess this is all I have to say for now. I'm outtie :)
SilentWings ~Kimberly~

current mood: annoyed
current music: POP

(comment on this)

12:08 am - Just got back
Ok, so I got back late Sunday night from NC. My dad is all moved in and is supposed to start work today. I miss him, but I know that this has just brought us one step closer to having our house finished. When we got there the apartment was a complete DUMP. The kitchen was horrible, it smelled, and we won't even discuss the bathroom. So we did one of those G.I. Party type clean-ups(military thing) and it was pretty decent by the time we left. We went bowling,fun fun fun, and we went to the movies, saw Jet Li's movie Kiss Of the Dragon that movie was GREAT! Um, my parents got there licenses and tags. They were pretty excited about that..and we went swimming. I also pierced my cartilage on my right ear(looks hot) and I got my hair washed and cut, the stylist wasn't the best but I'm content. I have moved all over and usually being the way that I am.. I usually judge very harshly how I'll like living in a place, but since this is my mom and dad's final move, Charlotte will be home so I decided to be a little more lenient. But Over the course of the Last year(we've been going back and forth) I've decided that I will absolutely LOVE IT. The school will be great, the libraries are Awesome, the neighborhood I'll be in is great(upper-class suburbia) and the people are HOT! Because of all the going back and forth and the fact that I will only be living here for approx. 6 more months. I'm not cheerleading this year :( but I have definitely decided I'll be doing it again when I go to Charlotte. Ok, so on Monday after we got back we got a puppy, he is a Pug named Polo and he is only 6 weeks and 2 days. Aww...he is the cutest, so I went shopping for him and got him some cool stuff. He had 2 brothers for sale but he was the fattest so I knew I wanted him. So that's great. But something even better my older brother just signed up for the NAVY! I am so~ proud. He lives with my biological father who is like at the bottom of the rung on the ladder of life AKA~he's a lowlife scumbag. So I'm really proud that my brother wants something better out of life. My mom was a little amazed that he chose the Navy because my mom plus both of my aunts and one of my uncles and my Dad are all in the ARMY so why he chose NAVY we don't know, but who cares~~GO DAVID! I love my older brother so~much! Ok, so I goto go. Life seems genuinely good. except I still need to lose 20 lbs. to be perfectly happy. But I'm on my way. YEAH!! YEAH!! YEAH!!
~SilentWings~ Kimberly

current mood: bouncy
current music: Sick Cycle Carosel

(comment on this)

Wednesday, July 25th, 2001
11:44 pm - Just got back
Ok, so I got back late Sunday night from NC. My dad is all moved in an is supposed to start work tomorrow(thursday). I miss him, but I know that this has just brought us one step closer to having our house finished. When we got there the apartment was a complete DUMP. The kitchen was horrible, it smelled, and we won't even discuss the bathroom. So we did one of those G.I. Party type clean-ups(military thing) and it was pretty decent by the time we left. We went bowling,fun fun fun, and we went to the movies, saw Jet Li's movie Kiss Of the Dragon that movie was GREAT! Um, my parents got there licenses and tags. They were pretty excited about that..and we went swimming. I also pierced my cartilage on my right ear(looks hot) and I got my hair washed and cut, the stylist wasn't the best but I'm content. I have moved all over and usually being the way that I am.. I usually judge very harshly how I'll like living in a place, but since this is my mom and dad's final move, Charlotte will be home so I decided to be a little more lenient. But Over the course of the Last year(we've been going back and forth) I've decided that I will absolutely LOVE IT. The school will be great, the libraries are Awesome, the neighborhood I'll be in is great(upper-class suburbia) and the people are HOT! Because of all the going back and forth and the fact that I will only be living here for approx. 6 more months. I'm not cheerleading this year :( but I have definitely decided I'll be doing it again when I go to Charlotte. Ok, so on Monday after we got back we got a puppy, he is a Pug named Polo and he is only 6 weeks and 2 days. Aww...he is the cutest, so I went shopping for him and got him some cool stuff. He had 2 brothers for sale but he was the fattest so I knew I wanted him. So that's great. But something even better my older brother just signed up for the NAVY! I am so~ proud. He lives with my biological father who is like at the bottom of the rung on the ladder of life AKA~he's a lowlife scumbag. So I'm really proud that my brother wants something better out of life. My mom was a little amazed that he chose the Navy because my mom plus both of my aunts and one of my uncles and my Dad are all in the ARMY so why he chose NAVY we don't know, but who cares~~GO DAVID! I love my older brother so~much! Ok, so I goto go. Life seems genuinely good. except I still need to lose 20 lbs. to be perfectly happy. But I'm on my way. YEAH!! YEAH!! YEAH!!
~SilentWings~ Kimberly

current mood: bouncy
current music: Sick Cycle Carosel

(comment on this)

11:44 pm - Just got back
Ok, so I got back late Sunday night from NC. My dad is all moved in an is supposed to start work tomorrow(thursday). I miss him, but I know that this has just brought us one step closer to having our house finished. When we got there the apartment was a complete DUMP. The kitchen was horrible, it smelled, and we won't even discuss the bathroom. So we did one of those G.I. Party type clean-ups(military thing) and it was pretty decent by the time we left. We went bowling,fun fun fun, and we went to the movies, saw Jet Li's movie Kiss Of the Dragon that movie was GREAT! Um, my parents got there licenses and tags. They were pretty excited about that..and we went swimming. I also pierced my cartilage on my right ear(looks hot) and I got my hair washed and cut, the stylist wasn't the best but I'm content. I have moved all over and usually being the way that I am.. I usually judge very harshly how I'll like living in a place, but since this is my mom and dad's final move, Charlotte will be home so I decided to be a little more lenient. But Over the course of the Last year(we've been going back and forth) I've decided that I will absolutely LOVE IT. The school will be great, the libraries are Awesome, the neighborhood I'll be in is great(upper-class suburbia) and the people are HOT! Because of all the going back and forth and the fact that I will only be living here for approx. 6 more months. I'm not cheerleading this year :( but I have definitely decided I'll be doing it again when I go to Charlotte. Ok, so on Monday after we got back we got a puppy, he is a Pug named Polo and he is only 6 weeks and 2 days. Aww...he is the cutest, so I went shopping for him and got him some cool stuff. He had 2 brothers for sale but he was the fattest so I knew I wanted him. So that's great. But something even better my older brother just signed up for the NAVY! I am so~ proud. He lives with my biological father who is like at the bottom of the rung on the ladder of life AKA~he's a lowlife scumbag. So I'm really proud that my brother wants something better out of life. My mom was a little amazed that he chose the Navy because my mom plus both of my aunts and one of my uncles and my Dad are all in the ARMY so why he chose NAVY we don't know, but who cares~~GO DAVID! I love my older brother so~much! Ok, so I goto go. Life seems genuinely good. except I still need to lose 20 lbs. to be perfectly happy. But I'm on my way. YEAH!! YEAH!! YEAH!!

current mood: bouncy
current music: Sick Cycle Carosel

(comment on this)

11:44 pm - Just got back
Ok, so I got back late Sunday night from NC. My dad is all moved in an is supposed to start work tomorrow(thursday). I miss him, but I know that this has just brought us one step closer to having our house finished. When we got there the apartment was a complete DUMP. The kitchen was horrible, it smelled, and we won't even discuss the bathroom. So we did one of those G.I. Party type clean-ups(military thing) and it was pretty decent by the time we left. We went bowling,fun fun fun, and we went to the movies, saw Jet Li's movie Kiss Of the Dragon that movie was GREAT! Um, my parents got there licenses and tags. They were pretty excited about that..and we went swimming. I also pierced my cartilage on my right ear(looks hot) and I got my hair washed and cut, the stylist wasn't the best but I'm content. I have moved all over and usually being the way that I am.. I usually judge very harshly how I'll like living in a place, but since this is my mom and dad's final move, Charlotte will be home so I decided to be a little more lenient. But Over the course of the Last year(we've been going back and forth) I've decided that I will absolutely LOVE IT. The school will be great, the libraries are Awesome, the neighborhood I'll be in is great(upper-class suburbia) and the people are HOT! Because of all the going back and forth and the fact that I will only be living here for approx. 6 more months. I'm not cheerleading this year :( but I have definitely decided I'll be doing it again when I go to Charlotte. Ok, so on Monday after we got back we got a puppy, he is a Pug named Polo and he is only 6 weeks and 2 days. Aww...he is the cutest, so I went shopping for him and got him some cool stuff. He had 2 brothers for sale but he was the fattest so I knew I wanted him. So that's great. But something even better my older brother just signed up for the NAVY! I am so~ proud. He lives with my biological father who is like at the bottom of the rung on the ladder of life AKA~he's a lowlife scumbag. So I'm really proud that my brother wants something better out of life. My mom was a little amazed that he chose the Navy because my mom plus both of my aunts and one of my uncles and my Dad are all in the ARMY so why he chose NAVY we don't know, but who cares~~GO DAVID! I love my older brother so~much! Ok, so I goto go. Life seems genuinely good. except I still need to lose 20 lbs. to be perfectly happy. But I'm on my way. YEAH!! YEAH!! YEAH!!

current mood: bouncy
current music: Sick Cycle Carosel

(comment on this)

Sunday, July 8th, 2001
4:11 pm - Off he goes....
Well, today is the big day. My dad leaves for good, going to good 'ole North Carolina to build our dream house. I can't wait to finally get settled. I love to move, sometimes it makes me feel all mysterious like a gypsy, traveling and moving so much..Leaving impressions on people that change their lives forever. But I have a feeling when we move to Charlotte for good, I'm gonna start having a normal life. I've never been considered "normal" I don't know what I'll do with myself. Any ideas? Anyway, I'm excited my dad will be gone,not like I don't love him or anything, it just means that I'm closer to getting out of this hellhole. I miss Sebastian, He's my German buddy,after he returned back to Germany I've really missed him,he is one of a kind. We have been anticipating his return,or my travel over. That will refresh me after the whole never moving again notion starts to intoxicate me. I've also just met this guy David, he is Australian but because his father was in the Australian Airforce he has been in the U.S. for 2.5 years. He really hates it. I kinda feel bad for him, but he's really cool, plays volleyball like me, and he is HOT,but his self-esteem is below 0. I think David could be really cool, but I have this complex about liking/dating someone who has the name of one of my family members. Like I would just freak out Kissing someone named DAVID cause that's my older brother's name, the same for my little brother Damien..or my dad Cris. Maybe,I'll get over it, but for now it's way too weird. Um, nothing new has happend. So I'm outtie...Stay cool.
SilentWings ~Kimberly

current mood: blah
current music: Like a Virgin......

(comment on this)

Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
7:48 pm - It's the 4th! Hoo-Rah!
Well, It's been a while. Hmm, my little excercise plan is working out, I'm seeing that old six pack coming back, OH YEAH! Anyway, my dad's mad about something or other, again. Whatever. My dad's
leaving for NC on the 8th and we are going with him for 2 weeks to help him get settled and then we'll be on our own until the house is built. I'm so excited. Not for him to be gone, but for our house to hurry and get built. YEAH. Well, today I basically didn't do anything. I did some aerobics and worked out, and I did some reading and some chapter summaries for my summer reading.Then I ate, not too much but I'm so~ full. So, I'm gonna leave I just wanted update my journal.
SilentWings ~ Kimberly

(comment on this)

Tuesday, June 19th, 2001
3:27 pm - Excercise
Man, I had the strangest dream last night. I was really cool, the most peculiar part was that I had one continuous dream the whole night. Weird. Anyway I started this new exercise program, yesterday. Right now I'm still in the beginning stage of it, the toning and stretching before I start back to the hard core training I'm use to. I don't know why I ever got off course. It's always the hardest getting back on that figurative horse if you wait awhile. ARG! I suppose my dad is coming around,about what happened this weekend. He left me this cryptic note with a 5 dollar bill attached. He knows how I think.I almost feel like I'm being bought, but sometimes you just gotta know when to leave well enough alone.So of course I'm keeping the money and I'll talk to him this evening. I really do love him. But sometimes I don't know who I'm trying to convince, Him or myself. I haven't gone driving with him in a while, I suppose I'll go with him tomorrow. Hopefully I won't break that many laws. The last time I broke(unknowingly) like 6 diff. laws, and the time before that I almost gave my dad a heart attack. Someday he'll learn to appreciate my style of driving. In the mean time, my mother refuses to get into a car with me behind the wheel. I told her, she just needs to give me a chance. She'll come around too, They All Will. For some reason I feel like an evil Cackle should have come after that. Anyway, I suppose that's all for today. Catch ya later.
SilentWings ~Kimberly

(comment on this)

Sunday, June 17th, 2001
6:54 pm - Summer Seasons
Ok,So this is my first entry, which is cool cause I really enjoy on-line "diary's" I had one on Bolt.com also. For the past week things have been very trivial at home and should I say I've been pretty much walking, in spiked heels, on sheet thin ice. My mom seems to be quite upset with me lately. Well, who the hell can blame her. I've been upset with myself. And who,does anybody know,what is up with my dad. He has been on edge for a little while. So let me just give you all a little background.Both of my parent's were in the Military. My mom still is, and my dad just retired in March. Which was this really big step for him,ok~fine and dandy.My mother wants to retire in Charlotte,NC;which is very beautiful.That's cool too,so since last Oct.we have been hauling ass back and forth a 9 hour drive to NC,talking to our agent our builder the whole nine. So finally we sold our house on May 1st and now we are in an apartment. Did I mention how much I hate apartments. Well I hate them A LOT. So they will be breaking ground,the foundation,on our house around the 15th of July and that means my dad is moving to NC before the rest of the family is. He has a job at a Wal-mart(remember he's retired from the military) and he has this SMALL one bedroom apartment near our land so he can watch/supervise the builders. He leaves July 5th. And frankly, I don't know weather to laugh or cry.He's my S-dad. I refuse to say the actual word,because he treats me like I am his own. I love him but sometimes I just can't stand to be around him. I don't wish any harm on him but I just don't know what to do.My mom has been on me lately. And Friday we were in the Car on the way to the mall, as a family (ack) and my dad was joking around about marriage and walking his girls down the aisle. He has 3 other daughter from previous relationships. And he said something that was kinda hurtful/condescending to me. And I'm the type of person who snaps back,says Whatever it is I'm thinking and worries about cleaning things up later. So, I say "At any rate I may be the first to get married anyway." And She's OFF. My mom went ballistic and my dad just kind of sunk down into the drivers seat. My mother and I are very much alike so she spoke her mind,definitely.And ever since my dad's kinda been quiet and when he does speak it's like it's down AT me, rather than TO me. And so it's fathers day I gave the gifts and the ritual hug and kiss and we've barely said 3 words since. We went to see a movie, my mom,brother,dad,and I.But that doesn't add any light to the situation. On top of that, his other children have not called and I almost feel like he's giving me the cold shoulder because of them. Hmm...So, take away all of that, and I still have the normal teenage issues.I've been reading and thinking a lot. I wanted to get a job,but waited to late and It looks like I'll be stuck babysitting for another summer. I don't mind but when the money runs out I find myself wishing other people would go out(and leave their kids with me)rather than wanting to party my own self.My parents have plenty of money,we are pretty well-to-do, but I always feel guilty when I purchase things,because they always want to know what's in this bag,or what's in that bag. They say with the 2 rents we are about to accumulate we have to budget. I know how to,but this saddens me because I usually get all the things I could want.But I understand.So that means no cross~country summer traveling like last year. How sad. :( I have just picked up this new vegan diet. Maybe that will help me shed some pounds.My goal is 97, I like that number;It just seems right. I'm also trying out yoga, it's kind of strange but I find it highly refreshing.Well, I guess that's enough for now. I will write more later. I truly hope you all enjoy.
Kimberly ~SilentWings~

(comment on this)


> top of page
LiveJournal.com